so raise your glass if you are wrong

 There is a quote from Grey's Anatomy where George (so you know it's old) says "who here feels like they have no idea what they're doing" and everyone raises their hand.  I feel like that is me for a lot of my life.  Especially now that I don't have the things I usually define myself with (no job, new friends, far away from my family). 

Here is one issue: everyone I know is having kids.  Or will in the next 6 months.  Or did in the last 6 months.  Right now is a very hot time for anyone I know or have ever known and kids.  And all the while, I feel like this picture.

Which is to say that in my head, I am not sure how I am more than 22 years old.  And although many of my friends had children at 22 (I am from Utah), I still feel my mind blown that I am old enough to have kids.  You know, because I'm 22.  (which is a huge jump from feeling 19, which was for a lot of years.)

Here is a second issue: I felt like at thirty, I would know what I was doing with my life.  I'd have a career, or a kid or at least a plan.  I tried to make a plan.  I've actually been trying for weeks.  But I think the problem is "have no clue what I want to do with my life."  Should I try a new career?  (fun, but what will it be that is more interesting and less annoying than what I already hypothetically do?)  Should I go back to school? (fun, but for what?)  Should I try to develop a plan to become independently wealthy?  (fun, but still working on logistics.) 

Apparently the problem with making a plan is, you have to know where you're going (other than "happy").  Everyone always says you need a plan to accomplish things.  And so I'm trying.  Because I'd like to accomplish things.  I just wish I really understood what those "things" were so I could start trying to get them done.